But for now VI

"I don't wanna love you in no kind of way,
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl."

Beyoncé - Broken-hearted Girl

Leo Horoscope - 13/10

Tuesday, Oct 13th, 2009

You know what you want and can quickly see how it varies with the needs of others. Today you can even find a way to mediate between the extreme points of view. But just because you know what's happening, this doesn't mean you can easily turn the present moment into a success story. Don't force any issues now, even if an important decision has to be delayed for a while.

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Memories up to date II

...

"He felt as if he had been robbed of an enormous account of valuable things. Whether material or intangible: journeys he had planned and had not made, words he wanted to hear spoken to him and had not heard, and the words he had meant to answer with; bitter alternatives and intolerable substitutes worse than nothing; the long patient suffering of dying friendships and the dark inexplicable death of love- all we had had, and all he had missed were lost together, and were twice lost in this landslide of remembered losses."

19/12/07

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Need

It’s as if there was a hole I can’t control, I just feel myself getting drawn into it…but I want to escape, I need the cure. I have no explanations to give, I don’t know my reasons and I spend too much time trying to understand theirs, it’s just not worthy!
I have the need to be reassured…
I don’t know if I’ve been asking the right questions; nevertheless, I never seem to find the right answers, the ones I need and that only you can give. I want peace of mind; I want those thoughts and questions to stop harassing me in my sleep. But you can’t give me what I want: I want to be free. It turns out that I don’t have the power to break the curse. It’s not their fault and I am sorry.

Memories up to date I

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Without knowing, you always find a way to come and make it all ok, taking the fears and dark thoughts away. It’s true that you’re the one that undeliberately causes them, but you somehow shove them away...except your timing can’t and won’t always be perfect. And that's what I'm most afraid of!

05/04/09

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All Rise for BLUE

On April 28th 2009, Blue announced that they have reformed & will soon return to the stage this summer with a new album coming soon. They'll be doing some summer gigs up and down the United Kingdom and are planning to do some abroad too...

The band – whose debut single 'All Rise' reached Number 4 in the UK charts in May 2001 – sold seven million albums and four million singles but split up in 2005 to pursue solo careers.

James, 31, said: “We’re absolutely so ecstatic to be back together. We met up a couple of weeks ago to talk about it and we are so excited. I think we’re going to enjoy it even more the second time round.”
Ryan, 25, told Capital FM: “We never actually broke up. We never said we was broken up officially.”
But Webbe interrupted: “We did though. We did say that we was persuing solo careers and stuff.”
Costa, 27, said: “We got asked by Capital if we consider getting back together. They called us up and said you were such big supporters of the station back in the day and it would be great if you could get back together for the Summertime Ball. It’s for a good cause and we’re really looking forward to performing.”
But the band were tight lipped when asked if they would be releasing new material.
Webbe, 30, said: “We don’t want to give anything away.”

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Opposites

An ally. Not the enemy.
Trying. Not pretending to.
Paranoid. Not faithless.
Confused. Not lying.
Thinking. Not plotting.
Careful. Not hypocrite.
Awe. Not fear.
Interested. Not interesting.
Honesty. Not bluntness.
Intention. Not purpose.
Respecting. Not agreeing.
Chance. Not fate.
Waiting. Not giving up.
To cry. Not to mourn.
Faith. Not hope.
Difficult. Not impossible.
Trust. Not curiosity.
Unrehearsed. Not planned.
Sensitive. Not sensible.
Double standards. Not selfishness.
Believing. Doubting.
Learning. Teaching.
Not a saint. Not a sinner.

Leo Horoscope - 01/03

Sunday, Mars 1st, 2009

Although you may be experiencing a quiet internal battle between your head and your heart, you'll probably sweep your feelings under a rug today. Perhaps you truly believe that rational thoughts are higher than feelings on the evolutionary ladder, but logic doesn't have to override your love. Turn the battle for control into a practice of opening channels of communication while seeking balance in your life.

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(Este devia ser o meu horóscopo diário e não apenas do dia de hoje...)

Leo Horoscope - 22/02

Sunday, Feb 22nd, 2009

You are hopeful about your relationships now, but you still might go through some mood swings while the Moon is in your 7th House of Partners. You may be overly sensitive to abandonment issues today, so try not to take it so personally if someone does something that doesn't include you. Give your friends the same freedom and trust that you would want them to give to you.

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New Moon - quote

"After all, how many ways can one heart be
mangled and still be expected to keep beating?"

in "New Moon" by Stephenie Meyer

Stairway

22 degrees will take me
to these stairs I must climb.
Could you take the floor without permission?
Were I more constant you’d make me pay
For all the things I never did
and for everything I meant.
The stairs have reached the end,
I’m not tired but my mind is exhausted.
I was troubled by the demons
you said would never come.
The temperature rose,
I won’t go home tonight.
I’ll call you to cancel.
I must climb these stairs
once and again.
For the last time.

I Rant

“AAAH, YOU SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME”

I just hate when people scare me. Yet, and I wonder why, people just keep on frightening me, attacking me from behind and doing it on purpose.
Oh, but that’s not all… They give me the scare of my life but then just don’t care about my utmost frightening state, like “It’s not my fault. You scare easily.”
And then there’s my grandmother who scares me just by getting up from bed: “Calm down. You ain’t gonna die.” It’s just that I respect, I take seriously the “You scared me to death” expression. Who knows? And then if I eventually do get killed by the fright she “induced” on me, she’ll spend the rest of her life blaming herself just because one fine day she had decided, once more, to creep upon me or unexpectedly raise her voice.
I don’t like scares; I guess I’m afraid of everything but mostly of everyone or anyone. I feel like a bird looking at that figure that looks like a person (but it’s not) dressed in some old and shabby clothes and set up in the middle of a corn field just expecting to fright me away. This image haunts me… I hate scares, therefore I hate scarecrows.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained

I'm worried, busy trying to figure out where I stand and why you don't seem to care who's around me when I'm alone.

But it's all my fault. I'm an unmitigated quiter. When the right moment approaches I fleed the scene. Just can't help myself.

You rule my emotions, living without motion without you there. Nowhere to go to and nobody to come home to.

Go ahead and make a stand, you're emotionnaly balanced, unlike me.

I'm not trying to change your ways, just trying to make you come my way.

Just trying.

7 de Setembro de 2008, 00:27

Me, Myself and I

I guess I’m in that period of life when one feels the need to understand himself in order to “get it right”.
I am very talkative; I talk and talk and talk a little more… especially when I’m nervous or excited about something. I annoy people.
I’m not normal. I can’t act like normal people do, it wouldn’t be fair.
People aren’t just who you think they are…there’s more to that that can meet the eye. So I love symmetries and hate comparisons…
Friends are funny. I can’t say I have many; I have enough to be able to live on.
I never know who to call my friend so I tend to call it to almost everyone I know and then of course all I get is a sidelong glace from a part of myself to the other one, this presuming that I am divided in two parts ( F.Y.I. the rational and the emotional one.)
I’m bearable but it’s not really up to me to say that.
Despite everything I do have a life. I’m not perfect.
Well, I kinda like my true blue ways.
I also have a thing for the writing process as a way to express, usually not perfectly enough, feelings and ideas that live only in our minds.
I just like to write and in English it sounds better because I tend to be more philosophical and less poetic.
Another process I particularly like is the process of meeting new people. It involves, at the beginning, a lack of mutual knowledge of the other one flaws and qualities…the heart of the process is, then, the finding of common details and tastes, most of the time.
And then again it might not happen the way we planned.
I don’t pay any attention to details; the secret is not to let yourself get too attached.
There are moments in life when you need to take a deep breath and enter a journey into the realm of your own mind.
I’m troubled.

At first sight

"There's no such thing as love at first sight,

there's only fascination at first sight!"

Orson - No Tomorrow

Let's go to a rave and behave like we're tripping

simply 'cause we're so in love.

Funny hat, shiny pants

all we need for some romance,

go get dolled up and I'll pick you up.

There's no line for you and me cuz tonight we're v.i.p.

I know somebody at the door.

I see that twinkle in your eye,

you shake that ass and I just die.

Let's check our coats and move out to the floor.

when I'm dancing with you tomorrow doesn't matter,

turn the music up til the windows start to shatter

cuz you're the only one who can get me on my feet

and I can't even dance.

Just look at me, silly me, I'm as happy as could be

I got a girl who thinks I rock.

And tomorrow there's no school

so let's go drink some more red bull

and not get home til about 6 o clock.

Everybody here is staring at the outfit that you're wearing

I love it when they check you out.

Cover's only 20 bucks and even if the dj sucks

it's time to turn this mother out.

When we're together, when we're together

there's no tomorrow, there's no tomorrow

when we're together there's no one in the world

but you and me, oh you and me

oh you and me.

Big mouth, big style and big hair

GENERAL DESCRIPTION:
Back to Black, released in 2006 by Universal, is the second album by the British sensation Amy Winehouse. On Back to Black, she is working once again with producers Salaam Remi and Mark Ronson, who frame her provocative lyrics in a mixture of music styles.
Coming from a working-class home and living a life of addiction, the London singer writes all of her songs from her experiences of love and loss. As often as not, though, the songs on the album are universal for she manages to transform ordinary sentiments into powerful lyrics.

MUSIC:
Amy Winehouse has crafted a soul album, embracing at the same time contemporary R&B and some reggae rhythms, but still letting her unique style come through in each and every song. Back to Black consists of a contradictory combination of blunt lyrics wrapped up in danceable 60’s music. From the single “Rehab” to the album closer we get to listen to some classic sounds mixed with jazz, soul, funk and R&B turning the album into something big and fearless.

VOICE:
This gifted singer with a big mouth, big style and big hair has the brassy voice of a 40 year-old black woman and her own quirky, eccentric and blunt lyrics. Her unique and sultry voice combined with feisty yet vulnerable lyrics were the reason she brought home 5 Grammy awards and a Brit award.
She oozes soul; the entire album pleases with a contagious rhythm and really catchy lyrics. With its wide range of musical instruments and soul-filled vocals, we have nothing to whine about when listening to Winehouse’s much praised new album performed live or heard privately in our own home.

James@Oh my heart

Adore this life

There is no guarantee

Could end by tomorrow

Adore every fight

An opportunity

To give back what was borrowed

Nothing’s sacred

Make it shatter

Nothing’s sacred fall apart

Oh my heart

Oh my heart

Come on break me in two

Oh my heart

Oh my heart

Come on break me in two

Bring on the dreams

I’m shaking with relief

Don’t miss the darker scenes

These rollercoaster screams

Are breaking my belief

That I should matter

Oh my heart

Oh my heart

Come on break me in two

Oh my heart

Oh my heart

Come on break me in two

I don’t own anything

Just this life living me

No control

Refugee

Just this life

Living me

I don’t know anything

Just this life loving me

No control

Refugee

Just this life

Living me

Oh my heart

Oh my heart

Come on break

Come on break

COME ON BREAK

Waltz

Ask me to dance.
I have a feeling
You’ll be walking through that door.
But there’s always something in the way,
It’s you.
I want to stay but my heart leaves you
Everyday.
Give me your hand, help me understand,
Show me your hidden smile, the softest of voices.
There’s no combination of words I could say.
My world has a flood.
For the 97th time.
I don’t want your thoughts anymore.
‘Cause love is a bird with 4 wings.

Dream on girl - Rita RedShoes

Dream on girl, Dream on girl
I want to see you sleep tonight
You're up and down
You hit the ground
And time is drifting through your fears.

I can find your dreams tonight
And make your lover come back home
If you don't know, you are on your own
I'll choose the best place for you to sleep.

Come back to see the day you lost your heart
And all your hopes
I'll take you to see the sunrise and try to catch your ghost.

Come on girl, a dream is your world
The signs you see are in your mind
The words that you speak are here in my ear
So I can hear you falling down.

Take a breath to see me
I can wait for you to
Live a life with no hopes but
If you still believe…

Come back to see the day you lost your heart
And all your hopes
I'll take you to see the sunrise and try to catch your ghost.

Come back to see the day you lost your heart
And all your hopes.